Archive for June 2008

After a weekend of family and fun . . .

June 30, 2008

Today’s thought comes from my Buddhist Offerings book again. I think it was especially important for me today as I woke up feeling a little gloomy and wondering what the hell I am doing . . .  

“Want what you have and don’t want what you don’t have. Here you will find true fulfilment.”

Quoted by Jack Kornfield

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Love is all you need . . .

June 26, 2008

In regards to that previous post,

I was thinking about this idea as I was walking Betty this morning. I kept thinking of the Sex in the City where Charlotte is reading her affirmations and saying, “I believe in love.” I have been trying to repeat that to myself every morning when I walk Betty and everyday when I walk home from work I’ve been trying to say how much I love my job and I love my life here (which almost every day is really authentic and sincere). So every day for the past few weeks I’ve been running around thinking those three thoughts. “I believe in love. I love my life. I love my job.” Not much has happened beyond my feeling more at ease internally with the uncertainty and transition into my life in LA.

Then Sunday night I had a really amazing experience with Shar and Andree. Andree was over and she and Shar had made this amazing pizza from scratch and we were all sharing a glass of wine and talking about the idea of affirmations and abundance. These two girls are my little soul sisters. I love that they embrace these ideas so much and they really help me to grow and develop and believe. I started telling Andree about this dream I had had a week or so earlier where I was sitting out on a balcony of my house, looking out over the ocean and playing with my little girl. It was a total trippy dream. There was a man involved in it too, but the main reality of the dream for me was how happy I was with this little family. Andree was telling me how dreaming of a baby usually symbolizes independence, adjusting favorably to new circumstances and that aside from the totally obvious message of “Hey you could have this really great famly some day” it also had these alternative messages.

We’re chatting about this idea and all the sudden she just stops. And she looks at me really intensely and says, “I have to ask you a question. I’m sorry if it’s invasive and I know we don’t know each other all that well but I just had this thought go through me that I needed to ask you this.” 

I nodded.

“Do you believe you deserve that kind of love? Like the kind you really want?”

I just kind of stared at her blank faced. I hadn’t told Andree about my affirmations and I was getting goosebumps.

“Because I just got this really strong impression that I needed to ask you that. And to tell you to believe it, that it’s coming, that you deserve love.” Then she kind of stopped and smiled, “Wow, that was really crazy. I’ve never had an experience like that before but I just all of the sudden felt like the universe was telling me to tell you that – and it was really powerful, look I have goosebumps!”

So I guess the affirmations are working. The universe has taken my order and I’m just going to hang out and do my thing until the cooks are done preparing me some love! And I mean that in all things. Love in all realms of my life. I’ll keep you posted . . .

Abundance

June 26, 2008

 

I read some really great excerpts from Eckhart Tolle’s “A New Earth” last night. These passages come from Chapter Seven called, “Finding who you really are.”

 

“Who you think you are is also intimately connected with how you see yourself treated by others. Many people complain that others do not treat them well enough. . . Who they think they are is this: “I am a needy ‘little me’ whose needs are not being met.’ They believe they have nothing to give and that the world or other people are withholding from them what they need. Their entire reality is based on an illusory sense of who they are. . . If the thought of lack – whether it be ney, recognition, or live – has become part of who you think you are, you will always experience lack. Rather than acknowledge the good that is already in your life, all you see is lack. Acknowledging the good that is already in your life is the foundation for abundance. The fact is: Whatever you think the world is withholding from you, you are withholding from the world.” (p 190)

“The source of all abundance is not outside of you. It is part of who you are.” (p. 191)

It’s that old quote about what you think about you bring about. It’s the foundation of “The Secret.” When we are grateful and acknowledge the beauty, love, friendships, wealth, health and abundance in our life already, we attract more of the same.

 

Saving the earth, one piece of knee cartilage at a time

June 25, 2008

One great thing about not having a car and living in L.A. (probably the nation’s WORST city for public transportation) is that I get to walk everywhere. To work, to the grocery store, to the dry cleaners, everywhere. And everyone says things like, “I think it’s so great that you aren’t using a car.” Because I’m eco friendly. I’m not leaving a carbon footprint. Which, actually I do love, because I like to be earth conscious. I recycle, I reuse and I don’t mind walking to work. But I’m not going to lie to you, there are times, especially when I have to carry arms of groceries and manage my dog for 12 blocks, after walking to work and back already in a day. Sometimes, I’m exhausted. And while I appreciate that I’ve probably never looked better physically, I am so tired some days that I fall asleep by about 9:30pm. With the exception of yesterday . . .

 

SO yesterday was the usual walk to work at quarter to 8am, walk home at 1pm for lunch, take Betty for a walk, walk back to work, around 5pm walk home. But I’m going out of town this weekend and I need to find a boarding place for Betty that I like/trust/can afford. I’ve called three different places and all didn’t seem the right fit. Then yesterday I found a place called “Cagefree K-9.” They’re a lot smaller, fewer dogs, the staff was always ridiculously sincerely friendly when I called, and they let me make an appointment to have a screening interview for the Golden Bitch after work.

 

Here comes the catch. They’re about 3.5 miles from my place. I’ll mapquest it exactly and let you all know, but it’s a ways. Now in your car, that might take 5 minutes, but I don’t have a car. I also had a time contraint, needing to get Betty there after work, but before they closed. SO I walked home from work and grabbed the Bitch and we ran the 3+ miles to doggy daycare. They were awesome, the interview took a few minutes (because really, with this bitch it’s love at first sight for almost all) and then we got to run the 3+ miles home. I thought for sure I would doze right off last night, exhausted from all the physical activity. Yea!

 

No. No, I didn’t sleep at all. I couldn’t fall asleep after reading for an hour. So I put in my latest NetFlix pick – “The Other Boleyn Girl” which was so bad I turned it off after about a half hour. Only now I had images of dark haired Eric Bana with a dead sexy beard (the only thing that made this movie bearable for me) and I furthered my insomnia. My mind started racing through my own little dark haired, bearded aussie and it made me really sad. The end of the story is that I only had a few hours of interrupted sleep, which really makes me a grumpy bunny. Especially after all that physical exercise yesterday.

 

I’m going to be totally honest, there’s really no point to this post beyond that, I’m trying to be inspired, and provide some inspiration, but the truth is I’m exhausted and a grumpy bunny this morning. But at least I get to pack for home tonight and leave to see my fam tomorrow. I’m looking forward to a weekend of family. . .

 

 

June Gloom

June 25, 2008

Good morning . . .

It’s nice and overcast here in La- la land this morning. Apparently the clouds hang low and late in June, so everyone here calls it “June Gloom.” After several weeks of walking to work, home at lunch, back to work, and home again at pm, I call it sweet relief. It’s been so hot! I’m getting the corporate tan. A nice brown neck and face, the rest is white from being in my work clothes during the commute.

 

Anyway. . . here is today’s bit of inspiration. It comes from W.H.. Murray’s “The Scottish Himalayan Expedition.” I think books are actually underlined, but I’m not sure how to do that in the blog. That’s being said with my momma in mind who’s going to say what’s up with your grammar girl! Love you momma!!

 

“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation) there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: but the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issue from the decision, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. I have learned a deep respect for one of Goethe’s couplets:

Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it.”

 

I give you, the duchess blog. I don’t know exactly what it is yet, but I committed to it and am sure it will organically morph into something wonderful.

An Offering

June 24, 2008

Shar bought me a beautiful book for my birthday called, “Offerings. Buddhist Wisdom for Every Day.” It has beautiful quotes every day and an amazing photo that accompanies each page. I highly recommend it.

But until you’re able to go out and buy it, I loved today’s quote. It is from Chogyam Trungpa,

“You should begin to build up confidence and joy in your own richnesness.

That richness is the essence of generosity. It is the sense of resourcefulness, that you can deal with whatever is available around you and not feel poverty-stricken.”

So go about today celebrating in the richness of yourself, and the beauty that is in your day and in your life.

 

Chez Duchess

June 24, 2008

I’ve been getting a lot of requests to see pictures of my new place in L.A. Here are the goods . . . .

 

 

 

 

 

 

 A room with a view . . .

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 My balcony . . .

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Looking to the west . . .

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 And to the East . . . 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

And a special thanks to Labrador for modeling . . .